Dear Diary,Caspa and Feilix
Hate me, and I
don't know what
to do.
Every
time I
try to sit with
them, they go
away. Please
Help!
i wrote that in a diary when i was five.
casper and felix were two brothers i knew, they caught my bus and don't live too far from me. judging from this, they didn't like me
but no one likes me anyway
i went in search of a book i owned, it was based off the movie Anastasia and played sounds when its buttons were pressed
one of the sounds was the song called Once Apon a December, and it sounds beautiful in finnish
kerran joulukun aikaan.
ミツケラレナイ。
if i were to go in search of dolls, toys, anything i owned,
ミツケラレナイ。
my memories are becoming broken
i'm losing my memories
i'm losing myself.
i went to a beach i visited quite often when i was little
half of the playground was missing, a set of two lonely swings in its place
a place behind the playground, filled with grass, disappeared
losing myself.
do you know how it feels to be the only one in your house on a cold summer's night to be sleeping alone?
my grandparents shared a bed.
my parents shared a bed.
my brother and his girlfriend shared a bed.
i fell asleep alone
with only my computer for company.
but it will be a very long time before i'm able to sleep in the arms of the one i love, so i guess i should just suck it up and get used to it.
crybaby.
i'm a goddamn crybaby!
my brother aimed his massive nerf gun at me, and shot a foam bullet at my chest, hit me right on the middle of my collar bone
my mother yelled at me and said i was overreacting.
why do i cry so easily~?
do i have borderline personality disorder or smth?
.
i feel so lonely
god, so lonely
ghostooo ni naritai.
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