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anyway, love sickness sucks. so does real sickness. i've been feeling icky since last wednesday. this can't be good..

i got a new game called alien swarm :3
it's violent :D
and multiplayer

i must find people to play with me..

hopefully, i'll have mirror's edge by tomorrow afternoon >:D
steam hates me.. D:


does anyone know of any good co-op games? please tell me.



chocolate coins are yummy..




i know there was something that i wanted to talk about, but i can't remember..

mou

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i can't write anything

stupid love sickness



i hate this

fire

i went to a scout camp on the weekend.. not as fun as i'd expected it to be. hardly got to see yutaka ._.
but i was so tired i slept until 3:30pm today, so maybe i enjoyed it a little.

it's been hard to tell dreams from reality lately. my dreams feel real and my reality feels fake. it's been pretty confusing.




..


edit;

"the miracle of meeting by chance". "the red string" (of fate).
such things exist, right?

they have to.


this music, infiltrating my ears and mind. why does it feel different? it sounds like the two stereo tracks have been separated. as though a bit of each was played into both ears but now completely isolated.
why is that?

why does being alone make me so depressed? it never used to.

sitting here in my armwarmers, reading messages and conversations i've had. things like this never used to make me feel so..

melancholy.


call it teenage angst or whatever, but sometimes i swear that word was created for me. even if today is somehow a bit different.


or maybe i'm just moody or something today..




i must sound insane to the people reading this.

~arm warmers~

^twilight^

hmm..

i think i will cut a pair of stockings up and turn them into arm wamers..

is posting every day annoying? P: i wonder if my followers think "oh god, she posted again~"

edit;


*snip snip*




what do you think? :3

nachos

^my hello kitty gacha toy that i bought yesterday while feeling kinda depressed.

i had horrrible cramps and a headache today, i couldnt concentrate. so i went home and slept for a couple of hours.
then i woke up and talked to yutaka :3

eeh, i had scouts today. we cooked mexican food. :3
umm, mega picture spam in this post. i felt the need to take pictures of freaking everything~

i got the gacha that i wanted for once ♥
notices~
some lollies
a giant Shrek thing.. xD
my friends put fake blood on their faces and went off to scare some teachers xD
i bought some chocolate with popping candy in it :3
zetsubou, i saved some for you.

"itoshii no merankori----."

Have you ever just
stood in the cold rain
waiting for the wind to stop
drowning in melancholy?

i feel as though i'm leading a double life of sorts. me, the kurage, and me, the highschooler.every time i leave my computer, i lock it. i can't risk my brother or my parents finding out about the forum, my folder full of pura pictures, or even this blog. my msn, too.
i think i've been doing pretty well in concealing the jellyfish part of me, but i'm afraid that something's going to just slip out. "haha, i was talking to shinju the other day about that.." or "last night at 4am when i was talking to zetsubou..".
i don't want to think about such things.
what would my family do, i wonder?
scold me for talking to strangers in various countries after seeing my msn?
call me a stalker after seeing my folder of pura photos?

but i guess there are worse things that they could find. my dream diary, for example. or maybe my conversation logs on msn..
that's too horrible. D:

i still can't find my head phones.

i feel so lonely lately.


three (=one) little kittens (=girl)
they (=she) lost their (=her) mittens (=headphones/happiness/sanity)
and they (=she) began to cry (=?)

echo

i can't find my headphones. i had to go to school without them ._.
wherefore art thou headphones?
lol ok then..
i was talking to a kurage on msn on friday night, i think. or maybe saturday. i'd said something about him joining the forum only three days after i had, and asked him if he'd been reading my posts before we knew eachother.
to which he replied yes..
..which i find (incredibly) embarassing because i'd posted about ryuutarou's feet a couple of times around february.

well then, please ignore the ramblings of the insane/immature me.

lately, i've been wanting to watch a lot of movies, but i don't know where to obtain them nor do i have anyone to watch with.
i want to watch things like "aeon flux", "the fifth element" and "the rocky horror picture show".
okay, that last one was,,

anyway.
i wonder who reads this thing anyway?
i guess comment if you read it? idk

it feels like i'm yelling out in a cave just to see if my voice will echo.

->Pura->

not feeling the best today. since i have school tomorrow..
i feel kind of melancholy. no, that's not the right word. but i feel like i cant even do anything.
as though i can't sing, or draw, or even control my dreams. (and i've been trying to do that since january ._.)
i can't think of anything to write today...
i was thinking of competing in the second heat of the talent contest, but i don't know if i should even try.

i'm sorry, this is a very depressing blog, isn't it?
but that reminds me; if you want to hear me sing "zetsubou no oka", then *click click*

creamcolouredflower said i should talk about replacing the cream in cakes with mayonnaise, but i think they taste very nice with cream anyway. :3